18 Years of Something Like Recovery

I've been sober a long time now. Hell, I've been sober longer than I was drinking. I've been in recovery - true recovery - quite a few years less than those 18 years. I have slipped in and out of true recovery quite often through the years. My recovery looks different than yours and his …

Summering and Mothering without Alcohol

The smell of bug spray permeates the air and the sunscreen bottles are eternally empty. We have to walk out the door 10 minutes before leaving to perform our elaborate spray routine before scooting to camp. Their caps are sweaty and their socks are muddy. The blow up pool has been rotated around he backyard …

I joined a motherloving gym because desperation is the only way I change

I joined the family fitness center. I mean what in the world. Listen. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and the last time this happened I was desperate to be in great shape so my ivf would take and I could carry a baby (TWO BABIES) and then those same two …